Failed

I have failed.

And it doesn't feel good. I have been disappointing.
Now, the time is up. And I have failed.
Like playing a game, it will end, and someone have to lose.
And this time I am the one that lose.

But it's okay. Time will not come back.
Life is never easy. Maybe death will be easier.
But we all only have one chance to live.
So even if life is never easy, it will be easier at the end.

Dream and hope are the only remaining asset I have.

Let's start it again.
Even in the darkest place, hope will guide us to the light.

God,
Please forgive me, make me someone who is grateful to You. Always.

Three Hundred Dollars A Day

When we talk about money, I am positive that we all once have trouble with it.
Just like myself now. This month I don't know how to settle my debt that goes into $1,500.
While my whole debt is about $10,000.

I never complained. Because it's me myself that got me into this kind of trouble.
But now the question is, How I can settle it? How I can solve it?

By taking another loan?
This is surely hard, because with my already big debt how can I get another loan? And beside that, I don't know anyone else that I can borrow the money :)

What about renegotiate the loan?
This one I already do. The result is, I got to pay $1,500 a month :)

I only got 5 more days from now to settle it up. That mean $300 a day.
Wish me luck.

The only thing I can do now is pray. Because I got no more money left.

Dear God, I almost give up, but I know that you are The Almighty.
Please give me your kindness, help me solve my problems.

Amen.

Day 19th

23rd of July, Saturday.

A day that surely I will remember. It's my wedding day!
Like magic, everything is beautiful. Thanks God!

Now it's Day 19th. I hope everything will last forever :)